I've been having trouble drumming up much enthusiasm for my job lately. But things are turning around, I think. Last night I called up the EAP, which was incredibly helpful and I would completely recommend to anyone, and the nice lady made me feel better about life.
Then this morning a totally sweet photo assistant stopped by and asked if I could talk to some high school students in an hour or so. Of course, my immediate reaction was, "Talk to people? Uhno." But she assured me it would just be two or three small girls, and I figured I could use a break, so I agreed to do it.
And it was great! The small girls (they were, like, 13 and shy) were quiet but their teacher and the friends she brought along had questions, and everyone seemed to be interested in my job. She'd originally asked me to talk for 15 minutes, and I ended up staying for about 40. And, you know, my job *is* interesting. It's technically a dream job. A lot of the day-to-day can be pretty miserable, especially in the last six weeks or so, but I do get to do some cool stuff.
So I kind of rediscovered a bit of my enthusiasm. Yay! Let's hope I can hang onto it!
On an unrelated note, if you have access to Spice's blog, you must go over there and see the picture of me at age 17. I find it kind of mindblowing. I look SO YOUNG.